Sometimes we are cracked open without warning. Other times an unnerving anticipation builds like the click, click, click of the rollercoaster climbing up the tracks before an inevitable fall. Either way, this isn’t the romanticized, sweet pain of the movies.
This is the siren sounding, bathroom floor sobbing kind of pain that kicks us in the gut.
I’ve found that in instances like these, the only way out is in. Inside myself- underneath of the layers of blame and excuses I’ve piled on top of the truth. And if I can press pause on the “poor me” chatter playing on repeat in my mind long enough to ask myself, “Why did I create this?” immense treasures are hidden in these moments.
Many times we miss these treasures because they don’t resemble our mind’s narrow definition of what a treasure is supposed to look like.
On the heels of a very painful break up, where I was cracked open beyond anything I could imagine, I almost overlooked one of the greatest treasures of my life because it came disguised as a question I had massive resistance to answering.
But that did little to stop the question from badgering me… it woke me up in the middle of the night, and was patiently waiting bright eyed and bushy tailed for me each morning.
In an effort to silence it, I considered leaning on my old tricks and knocking back half a bottle of pinot grigio or buying a new spring wardrobe, but something deep inside told me that wasn’t going to work this time. No, I would have to answer the question…
“When are you going to do something that actually matters to you?”
I’d been successful in the corporate world for years, but let’s be real- corporate success isn’t exactly the stuff that lights the soul on fire.
So I quieted my mind, dipped into into my heart, and admitted to myself that I wanted to write.
And in that moment, I realized that I’d been unconsciously creating drama filled situations, (specifically in my relationships) as a way to distract myself from being confronted by this question.
Answering it meant I’d have to do something about it.
I mean… what if it didn’t work out?
Then, I wouldn’t be able to hold it out in the future as some white washed, distant world fantasy as the thing I could always do someday.
As I gave myself the permission to just Be the Beginner, I saw a surge in my passion and ability to express myself through many different artistic forms. I learned that nothing- especially the deep burning passions that live inside of us- is random. Engaging in what lights us up inside, elevates our vibrational frequency and we become like gigantic magnetics attracting people and circumstances into our lives to aid us in the pursuit of our desires.
When we approach each situation with the understanding that we personally created it to benefit ourselves, we allow hidden gifts and treasures to mushroom up all over our lives. (if you dig it, tweet it!)
Because our thoughts and feelings are the seeds from which our external lives grow, these questions, recognitions, and revelations possess immeasurable value.
It doesn’t matter if YOUR TRUTH shows up like a flashing neon light or casually breezes by like a whisper on the wind- when it comes knocking, the only thing you need to do is LISTEN!
These treasures live deep inside you and hold the secrets to expanding your vision of self so you can come truly alive!
What is the question in your life that’s begging for an answer?